Lights, Camera – Oh, Wait, Let Me Dig into This….

This post has taken a while. With three jobs and home loan paperwork and holidays, things have piled up and, now that I’m heading into my 5th House as a topic, my most crowded house, I’ve been overwhelmed.

The 5th House is the house of creativity, romance, performance, politics, children….

Here is what I have in this house:

South Node – Represents the past and lessons that have been mastered. Where we are comfortable.

Mars – The planet of physicality, energy, passion, aggression, sexuality. It shows what the native desires, how they will fight, and what they will fight for. It is also a minor malefic planet (meaning it causes friction).

Uranus – The planet of independence, freedom, rebellion, unconventionality, restlessness, innovation, fame, politics, adaptation, universality, technology.

Neptune – The planet of oneness, health and healing, romance, unselfish love, creativity, inspiration, tolerance, serenity, idealism, sensitivity, empathy, intuition, longevity, escapism.

Jupiter – The planet of expansion, luck, spirituality, truth, justice, knowledge, judgment, higher learning. It is considered a benefic planet (gives support and help).

So maybe the best place to start is with the broad stuff.

The House is ruled by Scorpio. None of the planets are in Scorpio, so I see it as lending an intensity, passion, protection, and introspection to all the things this house rules. Perhaps it even lends an element of power and secrecy. It could also mean, as my South Node is here as well, that, while I may have many planets in this house, the experiences I have here might feel so natural to me (because the planets are in Sagittarius) that they are almost unconscious and mysterious.

In physical interaction (Mars), whether it’s exercise, combat, or sex, I’m intense. In terms of social issues and independence (Uranus), I’m intense. In terms of healing, creativity, and idealism (Neptune), I’m intense. In terms of spirituality, justice, and higher learning (Jupiter), I’m intense. In all of these aspects, I tend to be fairly direct with my views, unless I know it’s going to harm me, because I’m also very aware that people operate out of their own views and, especially in terms of work, that can have negative effects on my life – all Scorpio tendencies.

In addition, I think Scorpio probably flavors my taste in entertainment. I enjoy a variety of movie and TV genres (Sagittarius), but the kinds of entertainment I enjoy most are psychological thrillers, documentaries, mysteries, and anything that takes an interesting and unconventional view of the deep subjects like death, rebirth, power, the occult, and change. Also, I love heist and con movies, which probably has to do with secrets and exposing them.

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The thing is Scorpio also flavors what I create. That’s not a bad thing, but with most of my planets in Sagittarius I have a desire to blend the light-hearted with the dark aspects and I have a hard time doing it on command. I spend a lot of time on details and research – I don’t think I’ve ever created an art piece or a story where I haven’t looked up something. When I was working on some noir drawings, I spent about 5 hours researching late 1940’s San Francisco. Reflecting on it, I think some of my best pieces have been done when I was on a time constraint or with very strict guidelines. It cuts out a lot of my tendency to overdo the background work.

Now, I don’t really have the time right now to actually do much creation. I’m working roughly 50-70 hours a week, leaving little time left over. However, I do want to adjust how I approach creating and, judging by the amount of crap I have in this house, it’s obvious that I need to create. So, I plan on doing little mini things. Still keeping to the deep, dark, and interesting, but in snippets as opposed to going down the well. There are several writing prompt threads on Tumblr I will be exploring to help with that. We’ll see where that gets me.

The other thing I need to look at is my approach to my son. I probably overshare a lot on the darker aspects of life with him and, in all honesty, I can’t blame his morbid curiosity on his own personality. It’s not that I want to get rid of having conversations with him about the tough stuff, but it might do for me to simplify some of the concepts. At least for now. It’s a difficult balance, but I think it’s something that will probably help with his understanding in the long run.

It’s something for me to think over.

 

Author: saharanstarshadow

I'm a mother, a workaholic, a veteran, a pagan, and a queer woman. I have spent the last 18 months in therapy for MST and PTSD and have decided to spend the next year on my spiritual journey.

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